A Little Bit of Coal in My Stocking


Alas, I have new cancer growth. My doctor approached the results with calm. He reviewed my options. We both agreed on the same approach. Surgery ASAP. I returned to Philly on Friday for more testing and hope to have results before they shut down the week between Christmas and New Years – even having a date set for surgery. I hope to return to the trial before losing my slot at the end of January. All very zippy.

Ideally, just one more blip in the road. (I am tired of blips. This is not the trial norm.)

But time to get off the medical bandwagon and enjoy what is left of 2013 and the holiday season.

xo marcy


About marcy westerling

I am a long time community organizer with a passion for justice and founded the Rural Organizing Project in 1992. Derailed by a Stage IV Ovarian Cancer diagnosis in spring 2010, I have stayed in treatment since then. I am learning how to embrace livingly dying and hope that by starting a Phase One immunology clinical trial at UPenn in spring of 2013 I will have more time to find the sweet spots of thriving while terminally ill.

25 responses »

  1. Marcy, I am glad you have a good partner in your doctor, and that you are on the same page. All my prayers for you as you enter this next phase of “figuring it out.” I hope you have a peaceful holiday season with your loved ones, especially those of the canine variety.

    Annamarie, IIIc dx 3/12/2001

  2. Oh Marcy … you deserve so much better than that .. you must be the most brave lady I know .. so strong and still so much compassion. You are our shinning light that is for certain. Safe travels.

  3. Sending love and peace and hope to you, dear one. We’ll pray that the surgery will put you back in the norm of the trial–and that the road will get easier in 2014. Many blessings to you for a peaceful and joyous celebration. Jeanne & Kae

  4. Dear Marcy, that is tough news to hear, especially at this time of year. It’s great that you and your doctor have a plan! I wish you the very best for your surgery and a happy healthy new year!

  5. Marcy, I’m so glad to hear how quickly they are responding at Penn in order to keep you in the trial. Sounds like they are making an “all out effort” to get you in and out of surgery and back into the trial ASAP!!!! Good people at Penn!

    You’re right about taking time to enjoy the holidays. You’ve done your part. Now you can relax and let Penn do theirs. Hope your holidays are relaxed and joyful.

    Hugs and love,

  6. Best of the holiday season to you Marcy. I like others am grateful for the responsiveness of your team; let their calm and confidence be yours for now, till the new year can bring its surprises.

    Warm hugs,

  7. You are in our hearts Marcy. I have heard good things about the trials you are going through. But I know they are trials, on so many levels. . . .You are amazing, we love you. Adele and family.

  8. well, crap, Marcy. I’m glad you and your doctor are on the same page and there’s a plan in place to keep yo in the trial. Prayers and love – for a good surgery and healing process, and for your holiday season. And here’s to a new year with no blips.

  9. Darling girl: Here is my wish for 2014 – no more “blips” for you – A year of blessedly smooth sailing full of moments of pure presence. You know, of course, that Presence does not include any thoughts of the past or of the future. It is only here and now where you are You. Phil and I are both sending you love. And to Mike!

  10. My response to your news:
    I want to scream “That’s not fair” and other words which I will not put in print.
    “Every day is a beginning, not an ending”
    Keep warm and cozy!!!

  11. Marcy, I am of course saddened to hear of your new cancer growth. But I am grateful that you and your doctor are both comfortable with the plan that you have chosen together. I am also grateful that you will have time to “just be” with those that you love during this most beautiful and hopeful of holiday seasons. I wish you continued peace.


  12. Enjoy the holiday with your family and friends. Worry about.tomorrow later. My wish for you in 2014…good cheer, good health, good friends and a quick recovery from the next surgery. Love and hugs to you and Mike.

  13. You have an amazing light that shines through you and many wonderful lights around you. What a powerful energy in the collective. So a Christmas wish that the healing energy continues to embrace you and carry you to more “sweet spots of thriving.”

  14. Dear, dear Marcy. Sorry, I can’t write what I want to here. Not polite language. You have taken on one obstacle after another and overcome most of them. Amazing to see. Now, another. It’s not fair. My fingers and toes are crossed for you. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

  15. Marcy, I am so sorry to hear your latest news. I can only imagine how disappointing this must be. I am happy though that they did discover this early on and that they will remedy the situation promptly. Know that I am sending you lots of positive energy, love, prayers, and surrounding you in light. Your friend, Yvonne.

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